Little less hope each day

Everyday seems to get harder for me,not only do I seem like a depress little cry baby,I slowly lose hope in things. School I push aside and for what nothing. When I try to speak out my problem not only does it seem like no ones care,it just feel like I am whining. I just realize something but I don't really think it has to do with anything that much the  death  anavesry of my mother's is 24 days away. I know I know its been 3 years know but I cant get over it,I just. Ever since then I began to change but thats another story that no one would like to hear.